Bitter sweet

Well it is official, I am now deferred from school until May 2007. I am sad and excited all at the same time. The sadness comes because I really was looking forward to knocking out this year in my life so that I could continue on with my career climbing the ladder.

On the other hand, I am ecstatic because the deferment means that the baby is doing well. I am also facing the sheer fact that I will be a mother soon. Something I have always wanted. I am especially excited, because we thought we might not be able to have children. We were beginning to prepare ourselves mentally for the option of adoption. Now that's a blessing finding out to our surprise that I was pregnant.

No matter that my timeline did not work out perfectly as I planned it, I have no regrets. I know that I will still continue on with my career, and I hope and pray that I will be a good mommy.

Not enough time

I have this horrible overwhelming feeling that I just do not have enough time to accomplish all of the things that I need to do. My To Do List grows and grows, as I am supposed to be taking it easy because I am pregnant. Not to mention the things that are added due to people thinking I am bored and need something to do. Trust me I have plenty to do! Yeah right, I now understand the saying "A woman's work is never done".

The baby's nursery has no furniture, nothing on the walls, matter of fact I have not purchased one thing yet for the baby. How sad is that? Time still keeps on flying.

Hopefully my raging hormones will calm down leaving me to feel better. Right now I do not have a clue where to start on my To Do List, because I feel so overwhelmed. Oh, the pressure of becoming a new mom.

Allergies Suck

For the past week I have felt miserable due to allergies. Not being able to take anything useful because I am pregnant has made things worse. All I can take is Benedryl, which helps sometimes, but always leaves me feeling like I am in a fog. At least I can finally breathe again.

I can't believe I broke out because I used Vicks Vapor Rub. Can you believe that? I have this red very itchy rash everywhere I put it. Oh yeah, this would be the time I put it on my nose, above my lip, and all over my chest. I feel like a Hot Mess!

The baby is moving around more and more everyday. This seems to lift my spirits. I try to get the baby to respond to me tapping on my tummy, but no luck yet. Tapping seems to make the baby stop moving. I get so excited when I feel the movements (little tiny flutters). I feel bad for my husband because he can not experience it. All I can do is tell him about it, and try to let him feel my tummy. By then it is usually too late, and he misses all the movement.